Yay! i organise a outing for 36 ppl with food and games, which is to me quite hard at first. Lucky i got help from jann and msg aloysius. With full support by my syndicate, i really feel very blessed. Although today went well, i am just covering my joy with my smiles here and there. I know i feel very sad still, now when i think of it, how many lies had been told to me, i cannot believe anything what she says and what he says anymore. I dun even know what i am believing in my religion is actually true...i feel so confused now, i feel so distraught, so ....(lost for words). Today, some random indian guy actually wants to take a photo with me, i feel so somewhat honored?...hmm...strange...anyway i pretty happy about how the food actually was more than enuff, i had to even bring food back.