Hahaha i do give myself a jab to laugh about, i told what i knew to clement and i realise i feel much better...i just need someone to talk to...he really does not know what i am capable of, especially of what i have learnt in my new vocation but i am not stupid in my rage to make a device to kill everyone...instead i wish to forget him, a friend i once tot was so very good to me...so pretenious...all he did...i cannot believe of all ppl it is him...what i worst feared have happen...my heart is truely broken to many shatters and pieces...so i am the sacrifical item now, i now do understand what is fight for my rights, lies you have given me, given me false hope to pin upon. I always tot i think too much but this time i am really correct...somehow i have been thru the worst night, i feel i am getting stronger every time this kind of sad stuff have happened to me, i truely changing. I may have the chance to fight back but now i have a clear aim in mind already, i know what to aim for, i see the target in my mind, the pieces are all set and i have to make my move.