Been sad after thursday, i messed up my team commander...then my course commander started shouting at me and all...haiz...really feel very very sad...very very depressed...feel i let down my teammates, my peers, how when i pass by some of peers they don look me in the eyes, while some try to ask me to take it easy, at that point i really want to break and cry, i started thinking about my ex, my failures of the past, no one to talk to but then i told myself, all my positives point and i know i am the only one that can make myself stand again and i told myself that i can do it...somehow no matter how i try to think abt it at night, i cannot become sad itself, i know that task is my weakness itself, being a social person is not my strength, i found my strength in myself, calm myself down, and i manage to get another activation today which i did better than yesterday...i know i can do better, but i know that task he gives was too easy...i learn a lot, i feel more confident after all these tasks, i can talk to ppl now, challenges are not from the writings and plan, is how i talk to ppl and react at the same time.haiz...i really learn a lot.