Sometimes i dun know why, am i acting a tough front in the faces of ppl. I do not know why but when i have mixed feelings of emotions, i will go crazy and sprout a lot of rubbish. haiz...this is something i have to learn, although i can control my anger well, certain other emotions is still beyond my reach. Confining into other ppl may help a bit, but still it really depend on yourself for this matter. This is something i must learn to help myself in the future, there is this book i have been reading recently is 7 highly effective habits for teens. This is really a good book i would like to recommend, something that teach a lot of life skills, something that ppl say books will not teach. Recently my bunk mate was asking me if having a gf now in ns is good, i told him it is a very stupid idea. If you cannot commit and develop trust between each other, there is no purpose. However, he taught me something, why would u wan to have a gf that is not so chio when u can have chio one, since both will react the same way. So now i learn, i guess i have to set my standard higher now. I have a story, once a saint says he wants to change the world, no matter how hard he tries, he cannot do it, so he decides to try something simpler, he wants to change his country, however these difficulties proved to be too much for him, so he decides to starts from his surroundings, he wants to change his loved ones' attitudes towards him, no matter how hard, he still fail. Then he thinks and thinks, why not i change myself? So he started to change himself, the way he look at people and things, slowly one by one, his loved ones's attitude changes, the country changes, and the world changes.
The moral behind this is sometimes to influence others, you must change your attitude towards the way u do things first in order to gain the trust and respect from other people. Cliche it sounds, but every little thing u do will affect every later stages of your life. When i started the last relationship, i tot i could change her, however i can't and i failed miserablely. And i realised, why must others change for you when you can change for others. Judgement takes place from your heart before the lines get to other people's minds.