I dun feel any thing from the deaths of the two recent national servicemen...maybe because i dun know them...i wonder what will happen if i die...nvm...i went to chalet and i saw many gals but somehow all of them dun catch my eyes at all...maybe i am still not ok...i feel maybe they dun treat me the same way...haiz...i went to have lunch with the uob ppl today..kinda random...but today is hong jing last day so go go for a while also can...

Night now, kinda doing nth for whole day until now...kinda shocked suddenly...lay koon suddenly tell me she is not happy at all, she wishes to be happy, i was stunned. I realised she was having the same problem as me few weeks back, but i know exactly how she feels...comforting her now...haiz i also dun wan to have that feeling again. Ok..now it is getting more and more wrong, she asked me to go on a holiday with her...maybe once i was kinda close with her for some time but i wishes it stays like this...ok now getting weirder and weirder hmmm.....what should i do...