Haha i am single again ...somehow i feel that it is not that bad.. I have learnt a lot from this..haha..It takes a lot of hee hee and a lot of ness to get together but our characters are way off from one another...I feel i have matured from this..I have understand a lot..It is not as if being sad will change anything like what she always say.. I must toughen myself emotionally and mentally which allows me to do things more rational.. I learn how to ride bicycle from her.. learn how to fight for my rights.. anyway i am a christian now anyways... so haha..god has his way of arranging things for me and i believe in god.. I have faith in him.. Maybe she is just the person that will bring me into the path of god.. I believe i will find someone better than her... It was all wrong in the first place.. She was like my best friend not a lover lol.. It is just that i enjoyed talking to her and she too so both of us get the wrong message and end up together which is a miracle but pain after pain i absorbed onto myself..I cannot take it anymore and well thats how we ended up seperated..I doubt anyone will ever read my blog anymore since it is kinda of ghost now...Now my aim is to go to sispec and become a 3rd sgt since ocs requires more fitness which i cannot gain in such a short time...I believe i will become a leader..one who will order the rest...It is hard to let the feelings go at first but after some time it settles down..Well now she is still my best friend just not a lover thats all..Changed the song too haha