This is the 2nd part of the 2 parts secret. I came from a traditional chinese family and what all chinese family want their children not to talk too much but to just do. I learn that by every pain i suffered. Truth is i wrote this in the compo yesterday so not so good mood. I remeber in kindergarden, during that time parents can look through the windows and glance at their kids. I cannot never forget that incident. I was sitting and listening to the teacher. Then i took the rubber and starting plucking it. After that lesson, i went home and guess what...I got whipped by my father. My first pain came from there..reason is because i never listen during lesson. I find that time my father was very unreasonable. Next incident, i took a bowl of soup at the age of 6
and walk to the living room. I slip and fall. My mother scolded me and whipped me. I cannot forget that incident. Every exams during primary school was a terror to me. If any of my results did get a band 2, i will definitely get whipped and that started from primary 3. Every time i tried to argue back, i get whipped. From then, pain on my skin has no feelings anymore, i just feel very numb. I remebered during primary 5, my mother did not cane me when i got back my results of all band 3. She threw me out my house. The memory can never be erase because the next moment my sister kneel on the floor and grabbed my mum's leg crying and asking her to let me in. She was only 9 then. That touched me and i could never forget. I did actually thought of leaving the house and never to return. I cannot take it at that time every moment i did something wrong i will just get caned and i cannot talk all i can do is just to be silence and accept the punishment. I know that leaving the house, i cannot survive at all i am just 11 at that time. Getting caught would only mean more pain to me. Next i actually thought of suicide..really..but thinking of my sister..i really do not want to give up my life. This road i took was not very easy at all..not very easy. I had to give up so many things. Every time i would to think about these memories..I really really want to cry. I tell myself i made it i made it, i made it through that phase. This is my very very sad secret i have been keeping for so long. I post it because i would like people to know me better. why am i so quiet and so anti-social at times. I have my reasons.